I’m so sorry..!

All I’m trying to do is be here for you
and remind you how much you’re worth
and how much you mean to me.
But instead all I’m doing is upsetting you
and hurting you and bringing tears to your eyes.
I don’t know how to stop
I don’t know how to love you without
feeling like I’m also breaking you.

 

Love, if I ever hurt you more than not,
if the pain I cause becomes more frequent
than the smiles and the laughter,
you should leave me.

 

I don’t want to be poison to you
but I’m scared that’s what I’m becoming

 

So love, promise me.
Promise me you’ll walk away
if I become too much.
Promise me you’ll break my heart
and not look back and just keep living your life.
Promise me you’ll put yourself first, always.
My heart is shattering as I’m saying this.

 

Please don’t get the wrong idea.
I don’t want you to leave.
I want to be yours forever,
and I want you to be mine for just as long.
And if you leave I’m not sure I’ll ever recover,
because you’ve become my everything,
and I don’t know how I would react to having
that ripped away from me.
I don’t know if I’d still be able to breathe,
or smile. But love…
I don’t want to hurt you.
I never meant to hurt you.
I’m so sorry that I hurt you.

 

So please. Promise me you’ll do
what’s best for you.
You’ll know. You’ll know if the time comes.
You’ll know if you need to leave to save yourself.
This is me saying that it’s okay
and that I’ll understand, even though
I’m crying just thinking about having
to go through life without you.