The Last Goodbye..!

Hey, sorry to bother you.
But I was just calling to say goodbye one last time.
Don’t worry,
I’m not offing myself or something.
I just can’t really do this anymore.
The pain is too much for me to handle any longer.
It’s different than other heartbreaks,
or even other unrequited loves; we have grown up
together, best friends, zero secrets.
That’s not healthy and it’s been breaking me for years,
tearing down my foundations and now the walls
are about to come crashing down as well.
So I figured I may as well try to stop that from happening,
and this was the only solution I came up with.
I’m so sorry. I know it isn’t your fault, it’s nothing
you can control.
But those feelings you can’t return for me have been
killing me slowly and it’s gone on for too long
and I’m finally giving up on this.
And that means we can’t even remain friends.
Because if we do, I’ll always feel this way.
It will always creep back in. I’ll always love you
as deeply as I do now.
And I regret that I won’t be there for you as your
friend anymore.
I know things about you that no one else does,
and I know it will hurt you to bare those burdens
alone but I have to save myself for once.
But promise that you’ll always remember the great
times we had, and that you deserve better than
what I am doing to you right now.
You don’t deserve my desertion, but I don’t deserve
to feel this broken. Even trade.
    I love you.
    I’m sorry.
    I wish it didn’t have to be like this.

    Goodbye.