I am not ashamed..!

I have been putting forth some theories lately - out loud,
through correspondences, in my head - that I feel deserve
an explanation more thorough than the ones
I have haphazardly tried to give while constantly
being in a rush.
These theories are not tame, or stale, or safe.
They deserve the time and attention required
to fully understand what I mean when I say them.
They deserve words.

The first thing I want to say about my self-diagnoses
is that I firmly believe that they are simultaneously valid
and fluid.
Identity is not stagnant.
It changes constantly,
as we change constantly - every day brings
new experiences, desires, and memories.
With each passing second of growth and alteration
we continue to shift along the spectrum
that is human nature.
I refer to these things by their approximate
clinical terms for the sake of ease of conversation,
but I don’t believe that anyone actually knows
how much of something one must possess
or experience before they can say it is ‘abnormal’
because what is normal, even?
What are the boundaries we should truly
be paying attention to, since they certainly
aren’t those provided by society?
Are there even any?

Nevertheless, even if my tendencies towards
these conditions are not 'abnormal’ per se,
they are both powerful and influential; more
so than they seem to be for most people I meet
and certainly more than enough to hold a significant
amount of sway over my life.
So I am telling you, my loved ones,
about them because I think they will play a major role
in the next few stages of my life and if you plan
to be around for it, you should know that they exist.