Distinctions i can’t help..!

there is a tranquility in acceptance.
i have a tiny pocket of peace now,
even though the tumultuous rage
of my emotions thunders on without pause.
the pain still scars, slowly but surely.
my heart still beats too hard to self-contain.
it’ll burst soon, i know it. but some older, jaded,
and helplessly wise little sprite within my abdomen
knows that it can re-form… and reform.
i’ve long lost sight of the place where i fell in,
and i know this will spit me back out even
if i still can’t fathom what it’ll be like to live without it.
this won’t be forever, so why try to fight it?
or if it is, i have no way of knowing it yet.
an utterly infuriating relief; much like you.

well, i’m not going to lie to myself anymore.
she’s never going to be consumed by me,
and occasional flares of passion are momentary
sprinkles of color among the simple gestures
of affection we’ve grown accustomed to exchanging.
of course it’s not the same.
but we walked through three years of shrieking infernos
in order to afford the sweet safety of our own forest
house on the 22nd floor.
we worked hard for this.
i’m not going to pretend that it isn’t important to me,
temporal as it may be. even if we aren’t much
to write home about, we’re still teaching each other
new things, and that’s more than enough reason
to continue to love somebody.

but you… you’re not alone on this. i know what this is,
and i cannot and should not deny it. nor should you.
this? this is like seeing halley’s comet pass through
the tired sky and knowing that there is a chance,
however small, that it can be caught. no, not caught,
perhaps. but touched. seen. recognized. loved.
it’s no more than a shooting star now, finite
and fleeting, but that bright arrow winking
at the mortals on the ground is an extraordinary
universe up close.
now we know it exists. and no one can keep us
from dreaming that a time might come during
which it will be within our reach.